Having dreams about the gods or enlightenment or metta (loving-kindness found in Buddhism) is not new for me but has ramped up recently for some reason. I’ve been lucid dreaming most nights for the past month. I used to train myself to lucid dream but stopped years ago. I haven’t picked up any of my old methods, I honestly had forgotten about lucid dreaming until it started happening again. I wake up a lot of mornings with this looming feeling that I’ve done something or figured something out that was weighing on me, but I forget what it was. It reminds me of the time I was lucid dreaming and started to interrogate myself with the Socratic method to figure out parts of myself. That dream was very blurry but I do remember walking up to a massive face sewn onto a tear in my dream cosmos. I talked to them a lot but I’ve forgotten of course what it was.
Now last night I dreamed of something. I forget what, but I woke up with an understanding of who featured in it and that it was important. I had dreamed of Durga Maa, nurturing me and giving me strength. She was a kind presence in the dream. She told me to stop worrying. I know I worry too much. It feels like drowning in a sea, I feel like one day I will be gone forever, I will have no say in my life. It could be a coincidence, I was chanting mantras all day yesterday keeping Ishvara in mind. I was rereading my old hymns and imagining writing some more with my new understanding. -Neela.
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